Tied to all that is familiar

Ashes on the front steps

Neighbours dogs barking outside in the frigid night

The barbeque in the backyard that has been used once, but cost hundreds

My brothers mildew clothes taking up much needed room in the basement

The tired old wooden dressers with the handles missing

The dust collecting on the bookshelves and pictures 

Same chicken recipe for dinner with no salt because someone has high blood pressure

Excited to watch reality t.v because they actually go places and do things like

shop for new designer clothes and throw parties with swans in the swimming pool

The height of my week is to go grocery shopping and buy coffee cream on sale

Mama just yelled about the ashes on the front steps

Maybe my life just got too simple

Tired of complacency

I need a vacation

Where lovers kiss on cathedral steps and the sun always shines on them

Locks are locked on fences to express devotion

I want to cuddle with the dolphins 

And run with the bulls 

all while forgetting about the familiar

Love,

m.

Before I Let You Know

I use to love rainy days until I had to smoke outside

An excuse to be alfresco and revel in my adulthood

In rain, sleet or snow

I remember the air being much fresher and the sky being much bluer as a child

Now I inhale all the poisons and feel calmer

Contemplating another decision

To change for you

If you change for me

 

 

Please change for me

and I will change for you....

Love,

m.

What Remains

We are broken, 

Torn sideways and cut loose

Searching for fallen fragments under your obstacles

Holding onto what remains

Just trying to piece a puzzle together

Pieces that have been lost or stolen in time

Mend me with the gold in your being

Let it bond the chips and fill the cracks

For we are more beautiful for being damaged

Our story repaired with wrinkles and grey hair